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A living nightmare by soulcollector16, literature

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A living nightmare

Entangled in web of darkness not able to move The pain is too much too bare I can't take it anymore Everyday its harder to get up Just wishing I were dead then alive So many time I've thought it But never acted on it My body is like a prison for my mind I scream but nobody heres me The darkness is closing in on me Like a dream I can't wake up from

finding a place in the world by soulcollector16, literature

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finding a place in the world

just a poor little fragile girl im just trying to find a place in this world but its to hard im losing all my friends im starting to fade away, but nobody even cares anymore i walk alone knowing one of my worst fears has come true i have been throwng in a corner forgotten about like and old rag doll some kid doesnt want anymore my room has become my hiding place i cry everynight asking why this world has to be so cruel, its so hard to find a place in this harsh and cruel world i wonder why my friends would leave me in the dark all alone doesnt anyone care anymore, sometimes i wonder whats the point of living if you dont

things i should of told you by soulcollector16, literature

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things i should of told you

your promises are nothing to me any more you broke all the promises you told me you wouldnt but you did it felt like you stabbed me in the heart and left me here to die you told me you would never do that shit and i believed you how dam dumb could i be to believe all those stupid promises you told me you didnt think i knew but i found out what you were doing all along i always wondered where you were all them nights you were gone, but i found out you think your tough but you arent selling all those drugs and the shit you put us through, you dont know how it feels i scream at you telling you dont do that shit it isnt wo

how can you feel so empty by soulcollector16, literature

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how can you feel so empty

i still wonder how do you feel so lonely what can make you make the call having no life at all is better then the life that you have i wonder did your boyfriend brake up with you did you loose a fight with drugs or alcohol did your parents forget to tell you they love you i wonder so much how can you feel so empty inside you wanna let it all go did you steal or buy that gun how can you feel so lonely and nobody knows how can you feel so empty inside!!!

whats wrong with the world by soulcollector16, literature

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whats wrong with the world

what i see isnt perfect at all i look around and see people who take things for granted and dont have a care in the world, i have regrets all the time i wish i could take the things that i have done wrong back, but i cant whats done is done, thats when i ask myself what the fuck is wrong with me i try to ignore the pain but it becomes worse it feels like i have been stabbed in the heart and left here to bleed whats wrong with me i feel so ugly and it feels like no one cares anymore i try to fit in with the crowd but i cant i dont want to follow the crowd anymore i want to be my own person i could care less what clothes

A dying soul by soulcollector16, literature

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A dying soul

looking in that mirror i wonder who that girl is looking back i feel all alone in the world nobody seems to care i just cant handle it anymore if you only knew the way i felt inside, i struggle everyday i feel so ugly compared to the other girls i see how come they are skinny but im not i always think to myself i have so much pain bubbling up inside of me no one knows the real me the one that starves herself, the one thats fading away does anyone actually care about me all i need is someone there to help through all the bad times i cant handle this anymore do you even care that im dying inside, i bet you dont i cou

i love you by soulcollector16, literature

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i love you

i wish i could tell you the way i feel but i cant to you all i am to you is a ghost everytime i look at you my heart beats faster and my hands get sweaty i know this is a foolish crush but you have know idea how much i wish i was with you i love you and you dont love me were just friends i know but i wish we could be more i want to tell you but i'm afraid of what you will say i love you do you even care i love your eyes, i love the way you walk, even your hair the cologne you wear smells so good i wish i could tell you but i cant i want this foolish crush to last!!!!!!!

deeper and deeper by soulcollector16, literature

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deeper and deeper

here i go for the hundreth time all hear is people screaming at me telling me i worthless i run away trying find somewhere where i can feel safe i grab the blade my hand shakes so bad all i want is the pain to go away deeper and deeper the blade goes blood dripping on the floor i dont know how much more i can take i dont know when to stop anymore next time it will be too late and will you even care anymore all you tell me is that im not good enough i need to be better and you wish i was dead well maybe you got your wish as i grab the blade again deeper and deeper the knife goes i dont know when to stop anymore can an

pains of life by soulcollector16, literature

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pains of life

It makes me cry when you fight all you do is yell at me can i ever be good enough for my friends or anyone i look in the mirror wondering who that girl is looking back at me i cry as the blade goes deeper and blood falls to the floor nobody seems to care about me any more i fading away i walk alone wondering why my friends are leaving me i feel all alone doesnt any one care i feel so ugly some days i just cant do any thing right anymore i have become a failure the only way i can cope with the pain is the blade it goes deeper and deeper but i fear this time i wont know when to stop before its too late and the last d

ch.2 psycho or not by soulcollector16, literature

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ch.2 psycho or not

i stayed in that hotel forever it seemed like i just couldnt handle it anymore, it has been three frecking months since i left this hotel. i now only go out when i need food or other things. i sat down at the computer trying to figure things out. what started out as a suicide note became much more. My name is jane and how ever reads this good luck understanding these things. It became my life story instead of a suicide note. finally i finished the story which toke for ever. I cant handle this anymore, i thought to myself. i turned and looked at the old picture of cade and started to cry. Then i jumped out the window hearing people scr

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she's a fighter by soulcollector16, literature

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she's a fighter

she wakes up crying every night not knowing what to do the images in her mind won't go away she goes to school all alone with very few friends but it's better at school then home when she goes home all she hears is yelling and how worhtless she is and they wish she was never born she goes to her room thinking about the image she or her dream wondering if that girl laying on the ground with blood everywhere and razors by her was her or if it was just a dream she criesas the grim reapor tortures her soul but there is a fire burning in her heart that is her will to fight back because her friend is always there for her he tells h

THE DAY IT ALL HAPPEND by soulcollector16, literature

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THE DAY IT ALL HAPPEND

Blood everywhere on the ground people fighting, swearing at each other. Finaly she gets rid of her fear and says i can do it and gets up to help her team to defeate them, but when she does she hears this loud crack. She looks up and at the same time she feels something hard hit her and everything goes black. 3months and 12 days ago. Sept. 12 Well my name is alexis, i am 15 yrs old. I live in chicago but i move around all lot. You see I don't really have any family well I do but after they found out I was the different one they kind of abandon me put me in an orphanage and just left me. Well let me tell you something orphanges suck, so I ran

the day it all happend ch. 2 by soulcollector16, literature

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the day it all happend ch. 2

When she came to she got up real fast to look around. She could of sworen she saw her brother jake, but she wasn't sure. She saw someone's bag on the ground so she went over and picked up too see if she could find out who's back pack it was. When she heard someone coming so she grabbed a huge stick ready to fight if she had to. "Hey don't hit me with that little sisters aren't supposed to beat up their bigger brother" said jake with a smile. "Jake is that really you, I missed you alot jake", she said with excitement in her voice. She ran up and gave her brother a big hug. "Where have you been jake I have been looking for y

i'll do anything by soulcollector16, literature

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i'll do anything

theres not a day that goes by that I don't think about you this could be the last chance to make you understand i"d do any thing just for you to put your arms around me some how I just can't put you in the past no matter how hard I try so hard to get you off my mind but I can't will you remember me cause I know I will remember you I"d do anything for you just to be with me forever I tryto sleep but I can't just forget you do you understand I would do anything for you

flowers this time by soulcollector16, literature

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flowers this time

she was alone in the world no one seemed to care anymore he told her loved her but she thought it wasnt true because they already broke up once you see her heart wanted to believe but her mind said it wasnt true she couldnt help but cry she asked for advice no one would help she felt so alone all he did was beat her every time she went back to him but he sent a box of chocolates and card saying he was sorry so she went back to him the next day she got more candy in the mail with a card saying im sorry he beat her worse this time flowers were sitting all around her her as she laid peacefully in her grave where

the pain by soulcollector16, literature

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the pain

pain is all i feel love comes with pain all the time it seems pain is all i have come a custom to i feel nothing but pain i live off of pain this love brought me to the razor cutting my wrists blood dripping down can anyone help before the last drip of blood is gone and the last breath i take is gone from me i have become numb this body is like a prison for my mind ever since we broke up i cant feel anything anymore do you evan care that i'm dying inside can anyone help me

emptyness by soulcollector16, literature

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emptyness

im dying inside i cant move my body is a prison cant you hear me screaming help me i cant move anymore i cant feel anything it's like my brian is in a robot or something i cant evan smile when you try to make me laugh i cant express my feelings im in a prison im dying slowly this is torture i would rather have the gun at my head and you pull the trigger it would be so fast and better then this torture i just wish somone out there could hear me and get me out of this prison can anyone hear me?

tormenting soul by soulcollector16, literature

why do i cry everyday by soulcollector16, literature

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why do i cry everyday

whay do i cry everyday thats what i wonder see life is without meaning i feel like the walls are caving in on me sometimes i wonder why i was evan born im numb inside cant seem to move all my friends are leaving me and im all alone i feel like i cant go on any more i have been stabbed by so many people do i have any real friends out there i cry wondering why this is how life is am i in hell can any one help me

Psycho or not by soulcollector16, literature

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Psycho or not

Well let me take you back to when it all happend see i work as a vetrenarian. I was late meeting my husband because i had to take of this dog that got ran over. i also had to figure out how everything happend. Finally i got off work and went to the book store and met jack. "Im sorry I was so busy with work", jane said out of breath. "It's ok honey, but i'm buying this book for you I thinkl it s something you might like ",jack said smiling. After he bought the book we went home. Jake and charlie were watiing for us when we got there. "Hey mom are you gonna cook some supper". jake said. "Yes honey i will go set the table so we can eat",

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soulcollector16

Aug 7, 2008

ITS AMAZING

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i cant believe this year i will be graduating finally. its gonna be great to be on my own too. anyways my summer has been going great i went to see mount rushmore and crazy horse they both were great and crazy horse was the best. though it was the longest car ride of my life lol. ive been working alot so i get the money lol. so yea so far my summer has been ok. well thats it for now so peace out

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soulcollector16

May 2, 2008

im so confused

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so yea i have know idea what im doing im so lost. lol but anyways besides that i am gonna freak ou ton some people soon in school they are so stupid and imature. one other thing is i think...... but idk....i think im might be falling in love....but im not for sure im so confused with all this stuff going on i have know idea anymore. oh and finally jake is gone for awhile im hoping now i wont have any more threatening letters from him in my e-mail and no more phone callls i feel so special but confused some what still. idk but i have these feelings for one person but then i pull away im just lost at the moment but i feel so weird i dont kn

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soulcollector16

May 1, 2008

school

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i have noticed a lot of things this year like im not friends with a lot of people i used to be friends with and now im friends with people i thought i would never be friends with so weird lol yea also there are couple of my friends as it seems to me that are not my good friends they used to be and that scares me because one of them or he i should say was like my  best friend i could tell him anything and now we barely talk it makes me so mad. then theres other people i want to strangle wont mention any names but she embarrassed me so bad at prom infront of my boyfriend i wanted to slap her but besides that i cant believe school is almost d

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XxOver-The-EdgeXx

May 3, 2008

I know your ganna hate me for this but you really are a good writer.

satoshibabe

Jul 26, 2007

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Dan101

Jun 14, 2007

Please..Wait..I am
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fasier

Jun 6, 2007

hiya, thanks for the watch <3 much appreciated ^.^

yea np

Heya, thanks for the watch.

soulcollector16

Jun 6, 2007

yea no pb